crunk_caitlin

NO! THIS. IS. BULLLLLSHIIIIIIIT.


So, I am .1 pts away from getting an A in chemistry. I'm so pissed off!! I have tried SO HARD in that STUPID STUPID class. I don't know how I got an 83 on the final, I should have made at least an 87, I think. I already emailed him requesting to see it and explaining that it is so heartbreaking to be within a fraction of a point to get an A. UGH. I hope I can get that slight bump, because I think I ended up getting a B in biology, which is all sorts of sad.

I think I ended up getting a B in biology! She doesn't have any of my grades listed anymore, and it just says "b" :-(
Hopefully I make an A in chemistry to make up for it, but who knows.

I ended up with an 86 for my final trig grade. It's bittersweet. It ruins my perfect 4.0, BUT, I was really paranoid about somehow ending up with a C in that class, because towards the end it started to get a little hairy, because I was taking so many classes and I honestly don't really understand math all that well.

I have my chemistry final in an hour, but I honestly don't even care anyomre. I'm sooooo close, I just want to get in there and get it finished, I don't care! Worst I could do in that class would be a high B, but I'm still hoping for an A.

I got an 81 on the trig final! That brings my final grade for that class to a solid B. That was the only class I was legit worried about. I guess I'm slightly worried about biology and chemistry, just because I know I'm right on the cusp of an A, and it'd be really disappointing if I missed out on it.
SPEAKING OF CHEMISTRY.
I got 100 on the lab exam, THANK GOD. I also got 100s on the remaining lab reports he graded, so my lab grades are ridiculously high, which is good because it's 25% of my grade. I think I can end up getting only one B this semester! That would be super wicked awesome, consider I took 18 credit hours of all really hard classes and worked.

Please think good thoughts for me as I take my trig final! I NEED to get above a D+ on it. Easier said than done, though...

I just brought up my trig homework grade from like, a 68 (and that's giving myself some credit, it was probably a little lower) to 89. Now I just need to get better than like... 67 on the final, and I'll have a B. I think I can do that. I really want to have my confidence, but I thought I could squeak out a C on this last test, and I completely bombed it. I would have cried and felt terrible about it, but she replaces our lowest test grade with our homework, and I've spent so much time crying over chemistry that I didn't have anything left for trig.

Now I'm going to study some Chinese, and then come back to math to review before going to get some sleep and waking up to do it all over again. Tomorrow (well, later today, actually..) I have my Chinese and trig final, then my biology and chem final on tues, and lastly my US history final Wednesday afternoon. I can't wait for it to be all over. I'm going to be able to relax, go out, finish up my sewing, start new sewing, hang out with my cat, bake, SLEEP IN LATE. oh man. Two and a half more days.

In Houston!!
ACTUAL snow! People have little pile ups of snow on their car roofs. Everybody is freaking out about the snow. They ended up cancelling classes today because of it (LULZ), but that's excellent news for me, because I didn't have to do my history presentation! I wouldn't have minded doing it, but sometimes I get real nervous in front of people so it saved me from an awkward situation. I just handed in my paper (which was at a minimum supposed to be 3 pgs, but I ended up doing 5 full pgs, so I think I'm ok) and leaving! I stopped by the fabric store and spent way too much money on the rest of the things I need to make potholders and aprons and all sorts of fun stuff! I splurged and bought adorable cupcake fabric for full price ($9/yd! I normally won't spend more than $6/yd, and that's MAX) because I was feeling saucy today. I'm really excited to get started, but I'm going over to Jimmy for a whole two hours. We have had no time to see each other this past week, so I guess two hours is fine. Plus, I want to get back to sewing. I'm way too excited about this, but I bought SPARKLY purple fabric to go with the polar bear skiing fabric, so I think I have a right to be excited!
Pictures this weekend, PROMISE.

I'm doing another craft swap on craftster. Last one I did I got to pick what items I wanted to make and for whom, this time I just picked a general swap and was assigned a partner. I'm doing "last minute Christmas" where I'll have a week to craft and get this stuff sent out. My partner is requesting gifts made for some guy (not sure the relation), and has requested "nothing girly".
OH NO!! I'm having such a hard time trying to make manly things! His interests are "zombies, scary movies, the show Dexter, big foot, kittens, and bikes.".
First off, let me just say that I am honored to be crafting for a man who likes kittens.
But honestly I'm a little bit at a loss! and I only have until next Thurs to send my package out. It's a small swap, I just need to craft 3 items. I've already started to work on a bicycle bookmark. It says "I want to ride my bicycle" on the front, and on the back I'm doing a little watercolor of a bike and "I want to ride my bike". I think it'll turn out OK. I'm going to get it laminated and junk so it looks nice. Other than that... ?? I'm thinking about making an embroidered big foot ornament, but I'm not confident it will actually come out looking presentable. I WANTED to make a zombie kitty, but that just wasn't working for me AT ALL.

So, I'm still WICKED bummed about my chem test, but I got him to bump it up a couple points (because he obviously took away points that he should not have). Not satisfied with it, but I guess I'll have to live with it. Today he gave us a lab exam that only had TWO questions. That is ridiculous!!! We only get TWO lab exams, and it's not fair to give us tests like that were ONE question is worth 50pts. Last lab exam he only gave us like 4 questions, and it caused me to bomb it! I better get FULL credit for BOTH of the questions, or else he's not going to hear the end of it from me!
But on a better note;
I stopped by Joanns today and picked up wicked cute (and wicked cheap!) holiday fabric. And my dad brought me home an entire bag full of cookie dough. I think he bought all the different kind of cookie dough that the store sold. I'll have enough to last me through... the week! haha. But really, it made me so happy!
I also did my history interview with the guy who sits next to me in class. He heard me pleading with my professor for a note to bring to the nursing home (not sure if I updated about it, but I called nursing homes to interview someone, and one never called me back, and the other wanted a letter on an official letterhead from my professor saying why I need an interview, ridiculous!) and volunteered to do it for me. He was in the Marine Corps for 9 years, and was a platoon leader in Afghanistan and Iraq (3 tours). He gave me lots of pictures to use and has made himself available to me to call or email if I have any extra questions. I'm not sure he realizes how grateful I am! It's really taken a giant load of stress off my shoulders. Now I'm doing all the math homework I should have been doing throughout the semester (doh!) and hoping and praying that I have other the weekend to finish my homework, and that they don't all close at midnight tonight, cause if that's the case then I'm kinda screwed.
Soo... trig test tomorrow, and that history paper/presentation is due. After that I just need to get through finals and I'm FREEEEEEEEEE. For a month, at least, and then I'm back to being miserable.

EDIT: My trig homework isn't due til Dec 7th. YIPPEEEEEE!!! So great!

If you want to help cheer me up, comment on this post with cat pictures.

HOW DID I GET A 75 ON MY TAKE HOME CHEMISTRY EXAM???? HOW??!?!?
I swear I did everything (except the last problem, which I TOTALLY should have gotten at least half credit for because it was ridiculous) right. How did I get a 75??? I give up. I absolutely give up. I'm so heartbroken.

I just swallowed my pride and called up a nursing home to ask to see if I could speak to anyone there. :-(
I still haven't done anything with my Chinese speech. I'll most likely skip trig and history today to finish it. How bad is that? On Friday I have a trig test, and I really can't afford to be missing classes like this. Oh well... as long as I keep up on the homework, I'll end up with a B average (because she replaces the lowest test grade with your homework grade). I'm not even going to try for an A in that class, I just don't have it in me. I missed another biology quiz the other night, and I cried all last night about not getting an A in that class. Just please God, PLEASE let me get accepted to UT, and I'll change my major to some fluffy liberal arts major and slide by. Just pleeaaaassseee do that for me.

I'm laying on my bed with my cat and suddenly he decides to start ripping up my chem homework!! I took it away from him, looked it over, and handed him the page that I didn't need anymore so he could rip that on up instead.
Ugh.
I'm so whipped.

It's 4am and I've been reduced to tears because I hate chemistry so much. I have too much to do this week and nothing is wanting to go down easily. I have that stupid stupid history project that keeps on falling apart, I have to write my whole Chinese speech tomorrow because I wasted too much time tonight on Chemistry and chasing around history leads, and some how, inbetween all this, I need to magically understand everything about trigonometry. I hate that I won't know about UT until AFTER this semester, because it makes me incredibly paranoid. I have so much wrapped up in getting accepted. I can't take spending another semester here, I think I would lose any sanity I had left, and my job has already found a replacement. This sucks. I hate school. I can't take this stress. My jaw is sore from grinding my teeth.

I HATE CHEMISTRY I HATE CHEMISTRY I HATE CHEMISTRY!!!!!!!!

I have a STUPID STUPID STUPID U.S History project to do. I'm supposed to interview someone who was a part of/witnessed some kind of historical/"newsworthy" event (maybe a WWII or Korean or Vietnam vet who served overseas, someone who was involved in the Civil Rights movement in the 60s ect). I have been looking and looking around, and any lead I find ends up falling apart. I had the most painful meeting with this woman and her husband today at a McDonalds, of all places. I told my security guard about the project I have to do, and she said that she knew someone who was a kid living in Pearl Harbor when it got bombed, and that her dad was in the Air Force. TURNS OUT. She lived in Taiwan her whole life, and had only visited Hawaii in the 80s. I was trying to like, probe out anything else I could use, but instead she was just listing off facts she knew about Pearl Harbor. Her husband, as I later learned, has Alzheimers, and he was in the military durring WWII as a Navy pilot, but he couldn't even remember what years he served. :-(
I'm seriously about to call up a nursing home tomorrow and see if there is anyone there I can talk to. I'm so desperate at this point. He's being unreasonably picky about this assignment, and I'm supposed to do an in person interview unless the person was heavily involved/had a very interesting experience.
This is bullshit. This is causing me way too much stress. I have other stuff I need to worry about, I don't want to deal with this!!!

My dad bought me a guitar. What am I supposed to do with a guitar?! I guess I'll try to play it, but I tried to learn how to play a long time ago and I remember being absolutely TERRIBLE. I played classical woodwind instruments, I don't understand chords! And I'm especially terrible at making my own music. But I will try, nonetheless, because I would not want it to go to waste. I feel supremely silly trying to learn how to play a guitar when I'm almost 20, because all of the packaging for it has a bunch of little kids on it. I think my stepmom is jealous, too. She started asking if she's going to get the stuff she wanted for Christmas. Listen, lady, I didn't ask for this, but I'm thankful that I got it! I don't even NEED anything for Christmas, I have anything I could ever want, food everynight, a roof over my head, a cat, TWO dressforms, a sewing machine, and a scooter! I honestly can't think of anything more that I could want (besides two yards of this fabric for a quilt... but I think my mom is buying that for me). Living with her is like living with a teenager, I swear. She got all of my dad's attention for years and years when I was growing up, and now that I'm down here it's suddenly a competition. Granted, I do get incredibly spoiled, but I'm sick of dealing with her jealousy.

Is it bad that I have a Knot wedding account (www.theknot.com) when I don't even have a boyfriend?? I just like to look!!!

Yesterday I listed some of the many many things I am thankful for. Today I decided to donate to causes that would help others be blessed with the freedoms, opportunities, and joy that I am fortunate to experience on a daily basis.
I donated to World Education's Girls' and Women's Education Initiative because I am so incredibly grateful that I live in a country that offers free public education, and that their are endless opportunities and advancement for me in the academic world, regardless of my sex. I donated to Friends For Life, a Houston based no-kill animal shelter, because my cat makes me so incredibly happy that hopefully someone out there will find that same joy in an animal. I also donated to Homes For Our Troops, to build a home in Houston for PO2 Anthony Thompson, who suffered a traumatic brain and spinal cord injury after being attacked by a suicide bomber. The organization provides housing specially designed for their disabilities at no cost to them.

If any of you would like to donate to these organizations, I will send you something for free (a fabric belt, scarf, embroidery, ect), just PM me about it.
http://www.homesforourtroops.org/site/PageServer?pagename=AnthonyThompson
www.nokill1.org
www.worlded.org

Instead of finishing my jacket (which I may or may not work on more before going to sleep. Made some good progress, changed the design more, placed and pinned everything so it's just sew and go) I went to the store and picked up two yards of fabric that I don't really need but wanted anyway, and put together a cute little pet bed!

I'm so in love with my tags, so you're going to have to see a bunch more of pictures like this!!
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